A Love So Profound:Monday Writing Snippets...

A LOVE SO PROFOUND…

Let’s pretend the sky is our haven, the waters of the sea our bed, the air of the earth our breathe, Let’s pretend the world is ours, ours just two, within a distance never to be sustained. Let’s pretend the world is never coming to an end, with the strength that is buried deep within our muscles of love, let’s pretend eternity is ours, ours to us for ourselves…

Let’s pretend thorns are roses, dust of the earth our perfume and tears the rain that waters our secret garden of passion, the undeniable depths of the ocean the undeniable depth of our connection. A connection that runs to the roots of a friendship entwined…

Gifted with a love so deep, so deep it is buried under the chest of eternity, a love so profound I can hear the whispers it spreads; the silent loudest noise pierces my ears and quivers the deepest parts of my delicate body with a passion, a passion deeply embedded in the spines of life…

love is a beautiful thing, dont get it twisted!!!

A love so loud I can hear, so real I can touch, so unfathomable I can never vacate, the intensity of the gravity so heavy I cannot gush out of the entanglement of the puzzle. I hear a voice so strong, so strong it pulls me to the deepest end of the pool of compassion,       of trust, honesty, and the undeniable force of attraction…

The footprint set of the love that never sets us apart, engraved in the heart’s wall is a fruitful feeling engulfed in the helms of immortality, the tenderness of the temples of the body of a love so unexpected, it is utterly a feeling deep within the soul, a love so tender it completes the emotional bliss we are so blessed with!!!

#tbc #thereismore #lovewhichspeaksloud #loveliveshere

#Christine Matenga...

What Love Is Not...

In the beautiful month of love that we are… yes I am going to talk about love #laughs. I mean we all know this topic is exhausted it is literally screaming for help, it’s under depression from all of us talking about it, lying about it and defaming its character but oh I can’t help it, I’m just going to help murder it too by talking about it, I mean I feel it every day, (shout out to all those special loved ones in our lives , yeah I see the smiles)….Anyway I’m here not to talk about love in its wholesomeness but I want to talk about the misconceptions about love, what love is “not”, so we all go together from this onset. Love is forever existent in our lives, one thing I’m glad is never running extinct, we might not understand it that much, but I bet you it never runs dry, it is an overflowing hot spring.

Often a times we misuse the word love to fulfill our self-interests, to get whatever we want from whoever, sometimes we totally are just infatuated and pronounce it “love”, sometimes we really feel but never really don’t know how to act when we receive it because we don’t know it and a whole lot of issues, but have we really taken into consideration of the things that shape our perception of love itself.  Our minds are inevitably shaped by what we feed them and what we are exposed to. And because we are developing with our technology, what better way to shape our minds if not utilizing the media, the giant in the room yes the biggest culprits; the internet and TV. These in many ways than one have shaped our conception about almost everything and how could it be possible to leave out love, no ways.

Let me explain it to you the best way I know it, from experience. As I was growing up I read a lot about romance in the tiny books I always had in my hands, and the biggest culprit being “Mills & Boons”, these big M’s stole my reality #laughs, they literally took my reality of love and murdered it and buried deep within the earth’s mantle  it probably melted after being murdered, thank goodness I had an encounter with a real boy and oh did hell break loose, I started learning from zero what reality was real quick through the experience of a real heartbreak, with zero returns or hopes of my night in shining armor coming to destroy the heck out of my heart-breaker. I didn’t wake up the next day with a hundred apology letters in my letter box, or a ginormous bouquet of flowers and a cute letter apologizing, the hit was real, it was a blow, and I figured this is really how the world works, I felt betrayed. I had known all my life that love was just that, bliss and roses and nothing else, if he ever breaks your heart , you always find yourselves together and have a happily ever after. Nooooo!!!That is definitely not, love is definitely not that… It is something else, it is on its own level and we have done a really god job in making it what it is not, like I said we murdered it, you murderer, are you not ashamed?

Things that love is not: 

1.       Giving way too much time, resources, and your life basically to please or keep someone. If you find someone that makes you do that, RUN!!!!Or if you are someone who expects these from someone, hey you are toxic!!!  Nobody owes you anything, you love yourself first before being loved by someone, nobody owes you your happiness, rather you find it yourself and enjoy it with someone else, and it’s always lovely to share. LOVE DOES NOT TAKE, RATHER IT GIVES,ITS NOT SELFISH!!!

2.       Always agreeing in everything, the same mind, the same concepts, I mean both of you have identical opinions, hell no, if I am in a relationship with you and you agree with everything I say or do, something is wrong somewhere, either I am abusing you or you are lying and not being a hundred per cent real with me, (P.S my mind is everything good and bad, so if you agree to every teeny-weeny bit of it, mmm please get out!!!) We are all different people and have different opinions altogether, we might agree on most things, but we definitely see things differently, just because you love grey and I hate it (probably because I think it’s just bleeh and looks like a prison wall, and I love yellow and you hate it because you think it is too loud) this doesn’t mean that we don’t love each other, you know this is the simplest example right, there are more serious or even little things we disagree on but we are still compatible. So just because you are always disagreeing it doesn’t mean something is wrong, actually something becomes wrong if your way of dealing with that conflict or clash is violent or leads to a toxic relationship.  You can still disagree and fight like Tom and Jerry but still miss each other so much and you know that when the other is not there, you are incomplete (On this also remember I am not saying you are a half person without your other, NO, I mean you are a one whole full individual as your own and the other person is a one whole that first perfectly with your wholeness). LOVE ACCEPTS DIVERSITY AND GIVES EARS TO LISTEN AND TO LEARN MORE ABOUT THE NEXT PERSON!!!

3.       Without the other you cannot function, financially, socially, emotionally, oh oh!!! This is one recipe for disaster especially financially and socially. Imagine the other        losing their life and you were depended on them even though both of you provided whatever percentage of your finances, just because you were more dependent on them and  you weren’t able to completely sustain yourself without them, the end is tragic. You are two separate people who have two different lives although you share one thing, “a mutual”, feeling, dependency is not love especially when it comes to the part of friends. His friends are his, you are not forced to automatically become friends, if you click right away that’s fine but if you don’t, don’t force it, you already have enough drama with family, there always is in every family, if yours doesn’t have then oh, that’s great, but I know we all have enough drama in our lives, no need to compete with the friends and see who is liked the most by your Partner. LOVE IS FREEDOM TO CHOOSE, FREEDOM TO LIVE, AND FREEDOM TO INDIVIDUALITY; IT DEFINES YOU AS YOUR OWN PERSON!!!

4.       There is only one “the one” for you, if you miss them then you are doomed, you missed the bus man, just stake a long lonely walk to your destination or rather substitute the bus with a cart, after all do you have any choice. This is one thing I call a misconception, it does not work like that, whoever started this the one is only one person thing kills the vibe man, how many people are out here? Billions! And you mean there is one person who is capable to love you just the one way you were loved and if you miss them that’s the end of you. Think about it. The one is the person you connect with on a deeper level and it doesn’t have to be a hundred per cent kind of relationship but you know you connect. There isn’t only one person who can do that, contrary to popular belief that love is rare now, and true love is scarce to find, where are you looking for this love, the mountains? No wonder why it’s rare in your eyes #laughs, it’s right under your nose, look closely pay attention. Just because the person you think was the one turned out not to be or they passed way or such, it doesn’t mean they were the only one, there are many people who can love you just right if you stop comparing them to the one you thought was the one, open up and let that new person be their own person and appreciate for who they are. LOVE IS EVERYWHERE, IT GIVES SECOND CHANCE!!!

5.       The way you feel about someone generally determines the love you have for them. Hell no love is not a feeling, love is a decision. Imagine the way you feel when that one person you love so much hurts you and I am talking when they do because of their recklessness or indecisiveness or such think about the things that come into your mind, you want to reap them apart and throw them out or such, but in most cases you choose to let them stay, why is that, because you chose it, it is based on a decision, it might not make sense but look deep into it. Because feelings change every other time based on different things if you are hungry or such they seize to define a relationship that stays for five decades. Love is a choice, is an act of will, you actually decide to love and give it a chance. Revisit the kind of love you have, because if you do only based on feelings, then it’s nothing, but only runs on the surfaces. LOVE IS A DECISION!!!

I will leave it here for today, so you can process this and let me know how you see love…Let Love Live within all of us, I mean REAL LOVE!!! Rethink what you mean, when you say “I LOVE YOU”, because there is a possibility you might be meaning something else other than the actual four letter word “L.O.V.E”.

#monthoflove #LOVE #loveliveshere

Regrets? No!!!

…Live a life full of lessons not regrets, it might seem like one after being in the situation or after being hurt, but you will look back and laugh at yourself for crying about it,and see it was just a lesson after all…’ Christine Matenga

Let me just say I have done a lot of things I am not proud of and half of the time (wasting my precious never to be recovered time, nxaaa) I regretted it and blamed myself for being stupid and all that stuff, but failed to see the other half of the time I also did a lot of great things I am supposed to be grateful for and pat myself at the back. All I am saying is I finally realized that, whatever I did at that time, in fact most of the time was necessary and nobody forced me to do anything it was all me and my sometimes rotten mind (wanted to use the "s" word but the good person in me, is always responsible) which always thinks I’m in control, man sometimes I’m a nut head. All the same the horrible things I did taught me lessons that are now engraved deep down in me and have made me a better person, whatever horrible thing you did, or mistake you are always regretting , come on, is this the life you want to live, of regretting things you already did and waste your precious time, huh? Is that how you want your life to turn out, wasted years. Move on already, come on you tortured yourself enough.

imagine never getting lost and getting there easy, hmm is that fun?

Most of the time we do the most irrational things out of love ( the usual culprit arggh, once or twice i was a casualty of this one), out of instinct or out of necessity, and at that time you will be seeing that as the best decision for that moment, but as time goes on you start thinking otherwise. And why is this so? Sometimes it is because you now know better, or you have seen better and you start questioning your wits. I know you know exactly what I mean, you don’t? You want to pretend you don’t? Alright let me enlighten you  a little… 

You ever met or looked at one of your exes really closely and think, ”oh my goodness, whatever happened to my judgement, was I blind? Oh my word what did I do? What was I thinking?”, you even want to divorce yourself. But one thing though, we all know when we were in the relationship we saw heaven on earth and at that moment that person was the right person for you,or at least that's what you thought. Whatever the circumstances that led you two to separate you know for yourself, but it couldn’t have been so bad sometimes it is because you just outgrow that person and start seeing them as not good for you anymore, in some cases you two just cannot work, sometimes its distance which happens, sometimes its drama, but either way you once loved that person a whole lot but when you see them now you are like what the hell was wrong on me, was I high on something? (yes you were, its called love, after all its blind,#laughs).

My point is, this is exactly the same that happens with some decisions we make in our lives. We do things based on necessity or instinct and we always want to fulfill our desires and reach our aspirations and dreams that we do certain things. The point is to grow, is to achieve whatever we want to, but for us to grow there are certain things we have to do in life, for us to learn there are certain things we have to do. When you were young and your mother told you do not touch the flame of a candle, did you ever stop playing with it, unless you were really, really not curious and just a dumb boy/girl, you listened, or let me speak for myself, I was notorious, just the one thing I was told not to do, I walked right into its face and poked it, I was experimental and so keen to see new things, I would touch the flame with the whole two hands, and guess who got burnt, me. The next time I see a candle lit I would just play far from it. lesson learnt, but did i regret touching the flame,probably not,it just gave me better ideas of playing with it, Christine next time we using a wire hanger or a stick to poke it because your hands have flesh and blood, see, it made me smarter, see?

no regrets , just lessons!!!

 There was always a lesson for me, not to climb trees, not to play with knives, not to play with fire, not to disrespect my mother, and it all came from the dumb decisions I always made before learning that lesson. MORAL OF THE STORY ; for us to be better, to learn , to know better, we should learn from our mistakes, our dumb decisions, our not so wise choices, and take them as that; lame choices turned lessons. There is no point in living with regrets rather take the lessons with you, move on already, do not be the thief of your own time, your own happiness, live your life to learn lessons and never repeat the same mistakes, because if you do then you are nothing but merely stupid, unless if it necessary #laughs, I also have exceptions sometimes but at the end of the day I also am stupid sometimes, l am human after all, #laughs. BE SMART!!!

 #noregrets  #conquer2019 #movingon

Are you having Suicidal thoughts? Listen, you are not alone!!!

Welcome back, to those who are visiting for the first time hello, it’s your girl Christine who puts a little bit of Chriss in every detail and is here to hang-out with you talking about life and a little bit of everything, the ultimate goal is growth here, so feel free to share your views and if you have any topic about self-development you want to talk about just do your thing in the comment box.

Today’s topic is a serious topic that is more taboo than it is sensitive in an African Society and it makes so mad and sad unfortunately, (I say unfortunately because for people who know me, they know you don’t want to mess with me when I’m mad, I’m like a teenager with raging hormones, full blown madness). We are talking about suicidal thoughts and what causes it, and how the African society takes some of the things as taboos that cannot be seen or heard of , let alone talk about , but it is what can build or destroy our societies. I recently had an experience with the “life is short”, sentiment when someone close to family almost lost their life and it awakened me from the death of silence that the African people’s voice is as far as mental issues are concerned. The voice is a mere whisper, almost a loud silence, and it is high time we spoke about this.

It is never the answer...IT IS IRREVERSIBLE DAMAGE!!!

Suicidal thoughts are not “merely evil spirits haunting a person”, it is more than just thoughts, it is psychological, a mixture of depression, not being heard, not having someone to talk to, high vulnerability, anger, hurt, despair, trauma and a whole lot of issues, I repeat it is not just mere evil spirits overtaking a person it is more than just a person being possessed by something it is psychological. Remember your mind is the most powerful tool in your life, it can build at the same time it can destroy; it has complete power over your life a power which we all need to keep in check. It tells you, confidence gives you many things and if it builds in excess ,confidence destroys, if it tells you , you are worthless, it switches up the volume so high up the only option is to end all, you see the power that the mind possesses, its deep.  

Misconceptions in the African societies on mental health have always clouded our minds when we encounter someone experiencing them we label the person as crazy or possessed, and in that case they need to be beaten to retain their sanity, we need to visit this spiritualist or that, but is it really going to address the root cause. It makes me so mad our societies as far as this issue is concerned are still so far back and we need to learn more on the topic. There is a whole lot of education that needs to be given to our societies and begins with you and me. People have issues, I mean we all have issues, but to some they are too much, some cannot handle them by themselves, but most cannot, we need each other, we need therapy, we need to talk, we need to speak freely about issues affecting us, there is more to life than just getting everything you want at your disposal, we are humans we need to feel loved and have a sense of belonging.

I will take this moment to shout out to mothers out there, talk to your children, give them love, give them attention, more than the resources you provide for them, they need those and of course they appreciate those, even if they have a funny way of showing it, they need love, we all need it. Of course there are things that we go through in our lives that are beyond our control, but we can do so much to protect our children, our partners, our sisters, your family and all the other people close to us.  Likewise to everybody keep in check of your loved ones, create time to talk about life in general. If we cannot at least talk lets us show love, kindness, a giving hand, not be violent, sleep well, eat well, be observant, listen and care for each other. Depression is real and when it hits it eats up to the inner-core, I have had episodes myself and all I did was cry and it even made things worse. Nothing is ever too small; lend an ear and a shoulder you never know who needs it. Above all seek for professional help; there are people who are qualified to help with this very sensitive issue, and safe a life!!!

Always remember: “Suicidal thoughts are temporary, but suicide is permanent. Suicidal thoughts are not reality, it is just illness talking, you have every reason to live to see the day you make yourself and your loved ones proud, and you need to be present to enjoy the feeling.”

Life is too short, appreciate the people around you, be grateful, be open, there is more for you in life, and when you fail, it is second chance to give it another shot, taking away your life only creates more problems for the people you love that are left behind. Life is all the answer you need, it has a hundred fold versions of answers to everything, and death is definitely not one of those. Lets speak more on the issue of mental health and acknowledge it is what it is "mental health", and not witchcraft...Help me to help us!!!

#notosuicide #yestolife #yestomorelove #fightthesilence #conquer2019

The Irony Of Life !!! Monday Writing Snippets...

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THE IRONY OF LIFE

By Christine Matenga

Digging it out so deep out of the depths of the mind, it is not a shocker to realize that exactly what we cannot have are the exact things we desire, we envy, we want. It is not the fact that you think you deserve something that rightfully gives you the strength to go for it rather it is the power of your negotiating skills that gets you there and when rightfully knowing you have that power you go for whatever you want to have which you know do not deserve. Such irony so deep engraved in the face of life.

The irony of life so distinct it shows everywhere you turn your face to, you see it the burning passions that ends up in taking lives instead of giving it, leading to the outbursts of tears instead of loud laughs, leading to the breaking of hearts instead of making of love. The people we love, we do not usually end up with, we lose where we invested in the most, and our words break instead of building. Such irony that exists, that the simplest of things are the things that matter the most either making or breaking lives apart.

No matter how some individual works so hard they still die a pauper, whilst the other is born with a silver spoon in their platters and never raise a hand to work any harder and thrive upon the sweat and blood of the one who works very hard, such irony we never come out alive where we thought we will, where we invested every last dime in our pockets.

Some might say life is not fair, oh well, yes it is buried under the sharp edge of the irony of life, where you never get to reap where you sowed just because someone else was simply more powerful than you are because of certain circumstances. Such irony when you finally realize that a bed of roses you saw from a distance is actually a bush of thorns, to get the beautiful roses you have to pass through the bush of thorns, where you get to eat the honey only after you get bitten by deadly small creatures that might just kill a really big human being, such irony so distinct it always shows.

Such irony so devastating your face smiles whilst your heart is frowning, you utter the words “I’m fine”, whilst you actually mean “I’m broken”. We so seem happy whilst we are only vessels with nothing inside. Life is an irony in its self, you are born so you should die, why then are we happy when we have a new born baby among us rightfully knowing it’s a grave in the making, only time will tell, we are happy just because we have embraced the irony of life, we have embraced that life in itself is an irony.

My Biggest Flaw (Dealing with it: How to)

Welcome back lovlies, I hope I find you all well , I am not bad myself, but just having an episode of reflections lately and I thought I should share with you one of my biggest flaws and how I have learnt to deal with it over time. There could be someone out here who also struggles with this flaw and is seeking to find ways of dealing with it as well as someone who has figured a way of dealing with it. That is why we have this platform so that we can share ideas and grow together.👭

I personally struggle with an animal called “PROCRASTINATION”, yippy I spelled that right, usually I write it as “procastination”, don’t do this you all, that’s wrong it has an “r” between c and a, right? Right! Yes this animal, and I have decided to give it so much power over like it used to be ,man , it used to play me left, right and centre, but I got repellent for it now. Sometimes it creeps so silent on me and beat me at my own game, oh it does, but most of the times when I have my repellent on, I slap it right in its face and it falls down with a really loud thud, and it feels so good, the feeling is addictive, and I realised all I can do this, this is not a life sentence, it’s just a habit. Procrastination is just a habit, that is all it is. It is not a life sentence, you all. To me it’s more of a bad habit, although I can manipulate it to works for me sometimes, oh I am still figuring that out, trust me, when I do, I will gladly share.

So I procrastinate a whole lot, I do not know how, but I know why. Let me share with you the reasons:

I have a paralyzing fear of failure, which is a bad thing because it is just not fear, but too much of it. The few times I failed I didn’t take it well, which I am also working on. I now understand that we all learn from failure because we are human, and the fear of failure paralyzes us and we remain unlearned. Will talk more about that another time, right? Right... Over the years I have learnt to accept that I am not good at everything, no one is really, but in some areas I have to work harder than in others, and I will fail at one point but what makes me better is rising up, picking up from where I left, redoing it , and better this time, do corrections and come out great.

Before now it was always about self-doubt (thank goodness I improved on this aspect even I am still shocked at myself). This self-doubt was always about thinking I’m not good enough, Z is better than me and I doubt I will ever be as good, I can’t do this well, what if I do this and never finish. What if, what if , and a whole lot more self-doubt, this is also crippling, as much as fear of failure was.

The other thing was and sometimes still is poor organizing skills. I think this affects many people out here and even more than we all can imagine. Ask yourself; am I not guilty as charged here? Yes you, do you have good organizing skills? Are you organized? Do you have a planner, diary or anything that reminds you of things you have to do and what time you should allocate each task? This might apply at school, work, church organization, anywhere you have some tasks that need to be done. Ask yourself, I see #laughs#, you don’t do you? Or if you have, do you really follow it? To be honest I never had any of these and this saw me postponing tasks a whole lot, thinking I have all the time in the world, and I always missed datelines or just had to do everything last minute, which is a no no if success is the ultimate goal.

PLAN , make planners your friends.

I must also mention this one, this is a good one; mere laziness, really that’s all it is about most of the time, just mere laziness. If asked to choose between typing a ten paged assignment and my bed and my sleep, definitely I will run for the latter I mean seriously would you choose the former when you have a month to submit the assignment, you genius right. Right! That attitude gets you in trouble, it’s probably why you are a procrastinator like me# eheheheh, I got you.

Sometimes I used to procrastinate simply because when the due date is about to knock on my door, that’s when my creative juices would start flowing, um at least that’s what I convinced myself. I found thrill in the rush that came with the speed i had to deliver the task under, however this always made me perform below the standard I could have delivered with had I not been under so much pressure. Which brings us to the next point; you don’t need to put yourself under unnecessary pressure if you manage to beat this procrastination.

You can beat procrastination through employing some of the following methods I have since adopted. I am still struggling, but I am now much better than before and still going stronger. You can choose whichever you want to adopt but also can use all of them to maximize on excellence, after all it’s all we striving for right?

BEAT PROCRASTINATION THROUGH:

• ·         Planning: Write things down allocating resources for each task accordingly
• ·         Committing: make commitments with your projects
• ·         Visualizing the future you want if you finish the task/project
• ·         Become a time warrior by scheduling your tasks based on time-frames
• ·         Use procrastination to your advantage
• ·         Always have plan B, if it fails, use plan C, we have twenty-six letters on the alphabet

·         Above all, take small steps and don’t be radical, biting more than you can chew is usually why you in trouble a whole lot, try these ways and if it doesn’t work, I guarantee you, I will take this post down #laughs. PEACE OUT!!!

Hope you find this useful, if not you can also chip in and help me help others, you are the OG, thank you for reading, and have a good day, xoxo!!!

#gettingorganized #conquer2019 #beatprocrastination

: Because I am a Woman: Monday Writing Snippets...

Hey, hey, hey!!! It has been a minute and I missed my weapons of trade, pen, paper and laptop I hope you didn’t miss me too much cause I did. Hope this finds you in good spirit if not, like I always say “THIS TOO SHALL PASS”, hang in there you are stronger more than you think. Remember that time when you felt like it was the end of the world and that was it for you, where are you now?? You are alive and kicking the heck out life, because you are the king of your destiny and you always get out of it alive.

Welcome the month of February, I hope you are all ready to see what it has in store for us. I am personally excited about it because I decided to utilise its Mondays in a different way. This is the month of what I call the “Monday Writing Snippets”, where I will allow you into my empire state of mind. You will get to read little bits and bobs of some of my writings. And I am excited to let you know that you are welcome to post your work here as well on the comment section and I will get to post them on my instagram page, of course giving you credit of your work so you can connect with more writers and readers as well as simply making new friends. You can also send topics of your interest and I will write about it, you also can choose to write whatever way you want, and make this even more fun. So this is going to be a February Series and I hope you will like it, let’s engage in the comment section you all welcome!!!

This is something I wrote when I was in the spirit of appreciating my whole woman and every other woman out there. The pain we go through but still emerge as the strongest and the most compassionate species. Enjoy!!!

BECAUSE I AM A WOMAN!!!

By Christine Matenga

As look in the mirror I see a reflection of a young woman, a woman printed with a numerous scars; scars of betrayal, of hurt, of anger, of bitterness, scars of life, scars so brutally endowed by life and she carries herself so beautiful, so beautiful with so much confidence and life. She is a woman also embroidered with a bit of love, a bit of affection, compassion and a big heart.  I ask word by word seeing the woman in the mirror saying it with me, WHO AM I?

I am a woman, a woman so strong she has seen it all, torture, betrayal, discomfort, sorrow and weeping, yet she embraces joy, laughter and love over and over again as it comes the list unfolds as the sky lays upon our heads, I am a woman , a woman so beautiful, the colour is contagious.

I have walked paths, paths that have cut the skin off of the little feet I have, thorns that have viciously scratched the skin of my heart, yet, yet I walk with so much power, my head lifted up so high because I am, I am a woman.

Betrayal, sorrow, pain, hate and tears know the deepest depths of my full being, yet, yet all these have made a beautiful endowment the skies under the heavens have seen, a woman that has feet that paint the ground she walks on gracefully, gracefully it leaves a trail of power, knowledge, fragility, femininity, wisdom, care and affection, affection that is communicable and makes the world a beautiful place to stay.

I carry the world as heavy as it is and never give up, heavens have blessed me with a smile, a smile that brightens up the day of many, a voice which caresses the heart and soothes the soul, wherever I step a trail of empathy is left behind and my name is unforgotten because I am a woman.

I come in different colours, different shapes and heights and I make the world multiply everything I touch, everything I touch turns into gold because I am a well organised version of a man, I am not a replica but I am an entity of my own the world cannot afford the expense of my scarcity.

Love, love knows my name from deep within as it is which I was made out of, I give love, I eat love I spread love because I am a woman, I am strong I am formidable all that jazz you throw at me I receive with so much strength if I fall a hundred times I wake up a hundred and one more times, it is within this capability that I have become the resilient being I am.

Tears have known me, and I have shown them a million times and not to symbolize my weakness but to signify how I feel when I feel it, within which spectrum of emotions I have shown a gift, a gift which the world has had since the beginning, because it is within this emotion I have created more and love every day, love to give abundantly, for I am a mother, a sister, a wife, a grandmother, an aunt, a supportive friend and a well organised man,  creation bore me  from its blessed womb, and set me here with both hands, both hands  that gave me a chance , a chance to live and spread the gift that I come with ,the gift of being who I am, because I am a woman.

I have seen it all,  all the negatives I have learnt to conquer, to mold and build, build  to be part of life, and I have refused to be the victim but the survivor of all circumstances, and I take all that life comes with ,my head held so high. I shall not say I am perfect no, because I am not but it is within these flaws I am beautiful, I wear my scars with me every day and embrace my imperfections, my imperfections which make me uniquely perfect, I wear the pain and distress I have seen and have made me appreciate the happiness and joy life also throws at me unconditionally which has made me emerge STRONG and MIGHTY because I AM A WOMAN!!!

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